i regret already having shared this url with too many ppl, I already feel restricted in what i write or not
in the long term i suppose it is of no importance, i woun't give a fuck if someone reads what i wrote in the past
but right now i feel like writing about sex, emotions, decisions and life and this won't be the place to do it anymore - too many potential readers
i do ask myself what's the point of a blog, then...
...i suppose it replaces the (now) old-fashioned intimate journal, but being accessible to a lot of different ppl through our own modern ocean we so like to surf, it becomes kind of pointless... besides, i type faster than i write, nowadays...
what pushes ppl to bare their souls for the world to see?
why am i doing this and feeling the need to do it?
do i need to communicate that badly? whom am i writing to? do i expect answers?
my present answer to all my questions is just i don't know
this is not my first "unconfort" post in this blog, and i tire of this ranting myself...
i have a plan for this blog - i'll be using it to write the "book" i've been telling myself for years i shall write
the one where the action takes place in two different places and three different epochs in time, where cause and relation do not follow logic, where the flap of butterfly wings just cause a sceptic to fall from his pedestal and look for a soft bosom to lay his head on
i believe i'll start doing that as of my next post
and i might (or not) start a new, more personnal blog
i'll think about that one, because i can achieve the same feeling of pouring my soul to the paper just writing a doc file...
in any case, this blog will keep on living, at least for a while, so
C you around
I don't know... does your mom or your boss read it? because otherwise you shouldn't feel restricted :P... it's really the worst to use censorship against one self... and a blog without readers is nonsense... with a blog you look at the end for exploration (about yourself), and interaction with others, even if that only means they read you...
RépondreSupprimeryour blog should be your freedom
there's stuff I don't want everyone to read but that i probably wouldn't mind that much writing
RépondreSupprimerthat's why i consider a doc file - i recognise the importance of the "interaction", as you put it, but there are different types and levels of interaction as you (very) well know
anyway, i'm a novice blogger - my blog is not my freedom - yet
if i keep on writing, maybe it will be, someday, but i only feel like writing when i want to share negative emotions
happy thoughts don't need to be exorcised this way, not for me
and i sure as hell ain't gonna keep a blog where i spend all time ramblin' :p